How I ended my 2011

Ø Went back to my hometown…so lucky that it was durian season I have a multilicious (the new word I created) durians from Ranau. Seriously peeps Ranau durian is on top of the chart.

Ø Organizing an impromptu Tcamp at my grandma’s kampong. Feel blessed and the peeps there asked me ‘where you’ve been hiding for all this while, we need you here!!’ and my answer was I’m not hiding it’s just that I’m immersed myself in a low-profile mode.

Ø Looking after my mom and accompanied her to go for scheduled appointments at 2 hospitals. (a must-to-do thing when I’m at home)

Ø Visited my girlfriend at her Tiger Homestay in Lawas, thanks for the warm and super duper hospitality given by Pammy and her familia.

Ø Attended my buddy’s intercultural wedding, Datuk Henry my buddy during uni time. An Iban married to a Lundayeh. Having a new experience of attending a Lundayeh wedding. I take my hat off to them as they are still practicing their culture.

Ø Visited another buddy from uni time, Salvia as she will have her engagement ceremony the next day (she’s engaged now), couldn’t make it for the engagement ceremony as we needed to head back to hometown so we made an early visit.

Ø Celebrated Christmas at my grandma’s kampong for the first time ever in my life. Though it was simple, I did enjoy myself.

Ø Having open house at my cuzzie’s house. Another makan-makan time, the part where I’m surely gain some weight.

Ø Girlfriends day out with my secondary school besties; Dora, Tom & Betty. We headed to Tan Sri’s house(btw it’s not his title it’s his name) to eat durian and had a photography session at Tugu Nunuk Ragang. As usual I’ll be the model.

Ø Having a Christmas celebration at my very own kampong and as usual we are in-charge of the deco.

Ø Fly back to KL with heavy-hearted, I bid adieu to my Mom and I cried. Over and over again I’ve been thinking “AM I TOO SELFISH?”.

Ø Attended meeting with the CEO and knew that 2012 will be a tough and challenging and the good news has put a smile on everyone’s faces . More responsibilities to come!!!!

Ø My New Year celebration- a steamboat session at Pastor P’s house. Doing countdown by sleeping and realized that clock struck 12 with the sound of the fireworks that lasted for quite a long time. I was super duper tired from the journey from Ranau to Kl then early morning meeting that I wrapped myself inside a blanket and didn’t even care about new year.

2011 has been a great and blessed year for me. I started my career as teacher and involved with so many things in ministries. 2012…………..here I come!!!!

A Picture = Thousand Words

A picture is worth a thousand words.

It's only a picture and many assumptions can be made.

Unexpectedly when my friend uploaded this pic so many people came and grabbed this pic and it even appeared on newspaper with so many captions.

And the best part is when people started to give comments on the pics and the one who kena a lot of course me la :(

People even extended their creativity by editing the pic to lots of version. It's kinda made me proud as well because people will not steal your work unless it is awesome and great!!!!

The cartoon version of the pic.

On the other hand, I feel proud also because it shows that me managed to put up a good act.

As a matter of fact this action was done spontaneously but the result was superb thanks the photographer miss florentina.

P/S: holiday mode is now activated but the bad thing is i feel so bowringggg staying at home doing nothing. Going outttt??? nooooo gotta save some money to go cuti-cuti malaysia..Mabul perhaps *wink wink*

Annual Dinner

I was so tired and I can't focus on doing my works.

So, here I am blogging.

Bunch of gorgeous teachers *wink wink* (am proud to be one)

I love the food that they have during the dinner. The event was very simple yet it was fun..with the 80's song and we're like singing and dancing. It's our day dude!!!

The theme is Retro 80's so I tried my best by mixing and matching with whatever things that I have (urghhh saving $$$$ mode)

I did buy the polka dot belt which cost me RM1 and those big earrings for RM2 to make myself look retro. (don't want to be left behind in dressing up mode)

P/S: gotta think of what to wear for pre-christmas dinner, wanna be funky this time around..ideas please???

I Made My Pledge...No Apologies!!!

I made a pledge..yes I did!!!!

Indeed abstinence works everytime

It's just about you and yourself.

We are in charge of our action but please stop blaming people.

My comment about No Apologies program:

I love it so much because they taught us to be practical in practising abstinence since marriage is

a gift of commitment to our future husband or wife.

I highly recommend this program to all teenagers.

At the end of the program those who wanted to make a pledge can sign the given card but in western normally they will wear purity ring but here we have the pledge card.

Yes we made a commitment today!

and here's my card that will be put inside my wallet as a reminder for me.

P/S: Wedding bells are everywhere and more and more friends are married. Gotta think of dress for their wedding receptions.

I Asked God

I asked God to give me straight A’s

But 2 came out as TH

I asked for straight A’s again

But God just gave me 4

I asked God for 9 this time

But why he gave me only 4 and I got 7 for add maths

Why

Why

And why?

He is so unfair

Going to boarding school

Becoming a forensic expert

These were my dreams

I didn’t ask much

But why He didn’t fulfill it

I went to church every Sunday

I fast 24 hours before every examination

But why?

My life was ruined

I can’t see what future awaits me

I enrolled in form 6 science

I got my confidence back in my run to achieve my dreams

Just 2 months and I found out it was so difficult for me

Chemistry made my cry

Biology drove me crazy

Maths was killing me

Oh God will I ever get through this

I have thought of quitting

But how can I tell my friends when they ask me what I’m doing now

Then came this telegram stated there about an interview

After two days I went and came unprepared

The writing test was easy but the interview session was way tougher

I didn’t know any current news so I just made up

1 month later came this offer later

Yes I made it

But I cried

I cried because I’m going to bid adieu to my family

5 years of study and now I’m a TESL graduate

Looking back on how my life was before

I feel so embarrassed

I feel so ashamed

If I take the time to listen to His voice during that time

I think this is what He will say to me

My child,

It’s not that I don’t want to give you straight A’s

But you are not ready for it

For you will become snobbish

And leave me behind

I asked you to continue with your ministry but you turn Me down

For I know your strengths and weaknesses

For I know you what future holds for you

And I know what’s the best for you

Today I say to God

Thanks for everything

Thanks for always standing beside me when I turn you down

Thanks for giving me the opportunity to know about You

I will never stop thanking You

For the greatest thing in my life is knowing You

I didn’t know much why You wanted me to become a teacher

But I now I know you have given the vision to me

To be the light and salt to my students

And now I stop asking but I start doing

long time no write

i long time no write eh

why ah?

because i'm super duper lazy...

i have lots of things to write but i don't know where to start

and when i start putting my thoughts into words it's hard for me to write the conclusion or even put the full stop.

my last post was in 2009 when i was still a student

so many changes happened but i didn't update my blog..urgghh silly me

from student to employee

from bank to school

from underweight to normal

from long hair to short

but i just love my life now

A teacher am I

To educate

To inspire

and

To share

with my students

Not just the knowledge

But also the treasure of life

Latest pic of me :)

#Happy working on Tuesday peeps!

the ME vs the AE

Report from the battle field: A tough fight between ME and AE and both actually have equal opportunity to win. Let's see who's gonna win and who's will be knock out from the battle. Rule of the game: "whoever give up or surrender by 29th October will lose"

Few more weeks to go and ME was having fun and wasting time.

On the other hand, AE was mad with ME because instead of fighting with him, she was doing something else.

As time passed by, ME suddenly realized...


OMGGGGGGGGG....few days more to go and panic stroke ME "what should I do? Where should I start?"
all the wh- questions are coming out from ME's mouth and also the how question

ME regretted for she has wasted all the times that she had before...sob sob..

actually ME didn't cry I put this to make it more dramatic...literature student mah Now back to the story......

Me felt so tense

she kept on asking herself will I be able to finish on time...I don't have the strength to carry on...helppppp!!!!!! mayday!!!!! mayday!!!!! Then one fine day ME saw this


"Wow..this thing is good huh..ho liao" said ME. She wanted to purchase it but then ME realized that it's not a good thing to get that because she will still lose to AE in the end. She kept on thinking on what she should do in that very last moment then she suddenly sang this song:
"JESUS IS THE ANSWER FOR THE WORLD TODAY, ABOVE HIM THERE'S NO OTHER, JESUS IS THE ANSWER"

"Aha!, " said ME, "JESUS IS THE ANSWER". For all these while ME was looking for the solution and on that very day she got the answer. She started to pray and gave all her worries to God.

Jesus said in the bible 1 Peter 5:7 :"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares you"

Me did not feel tense anymore and she was more motivated to fight with AE. It's a tough fight but she didn't want to give up because she believes that when she's walking with God there's nothing that she should afraid of.

Although sometimes she became like this


but in the end.....

she WON the battle against AE. AE is now with ME's coach as he wanted to become as good as ME too.

ME is now looking forward for this..wink wink



THE VICTORY FOR ME....not yet la ME dun perasan ah paper CALL lum ambik gik

ME felt shy-shy cat ..hehe

****you guys must be wondering what AE is, am i right??? actually AE stands for Academic Exercise/ Thesis
so moral of the story is ________________ (fill in the blank)

~The Chronicles of My Handphone Network~

These are my current handphones

but when I first started using handphone
this was given to me

the ever famous handphone during that time because you can compose your own ringtone :)

Hey...wait!! I'm not going to talk about handphones but the networks that I have used and I'm currently using. ^-^

This is my chronicles of network...

First, I used this network for this was the best network in Ranau during that time...no other network can beat Celcom during that time


Then, I was influenced by the massive advertisements done by Hotlink a.k.a Maxis
and I think I'm not alone for many of friends have used this network as well
another fact is that the ex chenta used Hotlink so I have to use this network too :p

Seriously the ads had made a great impact to teenagers during that time because most of my friends started to switch network

After a couple of years, I've decided to switch to DiGi for there is no chenta anymore T_T
It actually symbolizes the act of moving on with a new chapter of my life ^-^

and now I'm proud to say that I'm the loyal user of this yellow genie since 2005
DiGi gives lots of bonuses to me..thank you DiGi
btw, I like your genie ads

and also this U.O.X by Celcom

with this my credit is valid till 28th July 2012
I even enjoy super duper cheap SMS and calls

This made me think how much $ $ $ that I have wasted on buying reload cards since the first day I got my phone....



What about you?
Have you ever calculated on the amount of $$$ that you have invested only for top-up?
As long as we have handphones nothing will stop us from buying top-up

nanti chenta marah pula kan if tidak kena call (this line is for Cleo and Pam..huhu)

Thank You Letter vs Threatening Letter

Have you ever received a thank you letter? And have you ever received a threatening letter?

When I was browsing the pictures in my lappy I found two types of letter given by my students. They gave me these letters during my last day of practicum. Though it's been 5 months since I left the school but seriously I still enjoy reading them simply because these letters make me happy :) laugh :0 and miss them T_T

THANK YOU LETTERS

Compilation of letters written by students of 1K

Given by Timothy aka TJ

Miss you too!

Anis gave me this *wink*

Always with his so-called 3D style of writing - Carson

I present to you, jeng...jeng... jeng (drum roll)


A THREATENING LETTER

Up till now I'm still wondering who wrote this
I think it's either Asyraf or Daryl because they were the 1 who sent this letter to me when I was teaching at 2S

Yes, I am once your English teacher and your are once my students..my very 1st batch of students.

Adorable Brianna to Abused Brianna

For me, babies are one of the cutest creature that God has created and most of us are once a baby before we turn to be like ourselves now. When I look at her picture she looked so cute and adorable and I wish that I can kiss on her cheek. Brianna would be 7 this year and we probably have a chance to talk to her but she no longer can celebrate her birthday for she has left this world to be with our Father in heaven when she was just six months old.

I've heard so many cases of child abuse but for me this is the most brutal child abuse ever in history. When we were a kid and our sibling hit us we will cry because of the pain right? Imagine how much pain that Brianna had to bear as there were bruises from the top of her head all throughout her body all the way to the big toe on her right foot. Besides, she had bite marks on her face, cheek, torso and everywhere and she was just SIX MONTHS OLD during that time. This baby who did not even know what sex means was raped. This is not done by a nanny, not by an abductor and not even by a stranger but by her very own blood and flesh. She was abused by her mother, father and uncle. Through investigations, the police found out that the night before Brianna died, her father and uncle threw her to the ceiling and let her slam to the ground. Then, they had raped her time and time again. The bite marks were caused by her mother.

It was an ugly truth to know that she's been physically abused for a long time as the investigators discovered that there were old and new bite marks and skull fractures. I wonder if her parents do even love and showed their affection to her. Probably, Brianna's grandmother and uncle could have make a change if they reported this earlier or tried to stop it. I don't hate Brianna's family for doing this to her but I pray to God that they will change and start learn to love children. I pray that they will have breakthrough and be changed. I want them to know the wonderful feeling of LOVE. Let us pray for them.

Brianna's father, mother and uncle were faced a maximum of 18 years in prison as they were convicted for committing intentional child abuse resulting in death. The members of the public were not satisfied with the punishment and one of them State Sen. Mary Jane Garcia had tried three years to make the crime punishable by a life sentence. As for Brianna's grandmother and uncle they were sentenced to 30 days in jail for not reporting the abuse. Detective Wright felt that Brianna's parents are very young and they were actually struggling by themselves. Thus, young parents actually need to have proper education and proper support systems.

Baby Brianna is now locked up in a cage built around her grave by her family to keep the community who loved her so much out. According to the news report the grave is mess, unkempt and full of thrash. There's also a cherub with a finger raised to her lips and some believe it's message. For me, the message is very clear and shows the real attitude of her family. The cage that had been built by her family will not stop people from visiting her grave and show their love towards her as people still visit her grave and leave flowers. They even built another marker outside the caged grave. No one will ever forget Brianna because her case was an eye opener for members of the public, detectives, social workers and prosecutors.

When Detective Wright and his team were working on Brianna's case they never found pictures of Brianna in her home, not even a single image of her playing, smiling or laughing. Wright really wanted to know what she looked like when she was alone. He is the one who took the picture of Brianna as you can see below and he took that before they started the autopsy and her face was was lying on a white sheet. He decided to edit the photo so that he knows what she supposed to look like. I know all of you agreed that she's adorable and cute.

THE CUTE BABY BRIANNA

THE ABUSED BRIANNA

I was facebooking just now and I found out that many of friends watched the video entitled Baby Brianna. I was curious to know what makes this baby so special. Then I searched for the video on youtube and this is what I watched. So, I've decided to post an entry about Brianna. My tears fell down as I watched the video.

Baby Brianna

A reminder to all of us that even Jesus loves children so much.

Psalm 127:3-5 (New International Version)

³ Sons are a heritage from the LORD,
children a reward from him.

⁴ Like arrows in the hands of a warrior
are sons born in one's youth.

⁵ Blessed is the man
whose quiver is full of them.
They will not be put to shame
when they contend with their enemies in the gate.