I'm 23 years old

28th July 2009 marked 23 years I've been living in this world. 23 years mean I've experienced so many things in my life like sitting for national examinations, being scolded by mum and dad, having a fight with my siblings, stepping my feet for the first time at UiTM, treasuring wonderful friendship and so many other things (It would take me a year to list down everything so I just mentioned a few). I felt grateful for the blessings that God has given me throughout these years and I know He never leave in happy time and also in bad times. I know his blessings towards His people will never stop.

After the clock struck 12 a.m., I received so many birthday wishes through SMS , facebook and friendster from my family and friends..sorry I couldn't reply your messages instantly because I was tired by the trip to Genting. Thanks guys for these wishes, I really appreciate them.

These are some of the SMSes that I received:
Mimi: Happy birthday!
Dora: Happy birthday ivy..God bless u..
Maggie: Happy birthday to you. GOD BLESS U
Iry: Hepi bday sister..wish u all da best in life
Roland: Always welcome a new day with a "smile" on your lips, "love" in your heart & "good thoughts" in your mind & u'll have a wonderful day ahead! Happy Birthday :)
Pammy: Happy birthday to you dear friend. May all the love, joy, happiness be yours forever!
Alvin: hepi bday ivy
David: Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to ivy..happy birthday to you..hehe..happy birthday sizta!
Tatum: Ada org bday..Hepi bday
My bro Koboy: Merry Christmas (??????)
Mark: On ur b'day i wish u much pleasure n joy i hope all ur wishes come true..i'm wishing u another year of laughter, joy n fun, luv n happiness..hepi bday ivy!

I also received many birthday wishes through facebook..xie xie nimen...Dora, Syaza, Sharbby, Ean Hitz, Hani, Eloise, Lala, Mami, Ismi, Fel, Nadia, Makdi, Wel, Pam, Raihan, Saha, Majoree, Awai, Ija, Iry, Abot, Xanyee, Sis Ritha, Yaya, Aliah, Mas, Shai, Navetha, Divyangga, Yaya cuz, Uda, Baizurawani, Xueli, Fazu and Faidz.

Later that evening I celebrated my birthday with my friends...it was a simple BBQ birthday party but it was meaningful to me. To Pam, Cleo, Roland, Ob, Roy, Abigail and Dennis.. you guys rock!!! Sis Deborah thanks for the fried rice, Maggie for the burger and Roy for the ice-cream that Pam and I were craving for that night..hehe

Some of the pictures taken during my birthday party

The happy me.

Pam, Abigail, Ob and I even slept in the tent that night but it lasted only for a few hours because the rain fell.

Grace wanted to join us and she went home crying, begging to her mum and dad so she can stay.


At Thai Asam Fish with my housemates..the next day
Thanks for the gift and dinner my housemates.

A Big Loss

yeah I know I didn't update my blog for quite some time or for a long time to be exact :p. I have lots of things to write but it seems that blogging is not my cup of tea but I will try to update my blog regularly..hmm let's see k :)

Yesterday I received this SMS from my best friend, Tatum:
Tlg pray utk mmy sia. Dia masuk emgncy smlm sb sakit kpla n muntah2. Then hr ni doc suspect ada bleeding dlm kpladia. Belum decide lg whthr perlu bdah or x.
I was surprised to hear that but I thought it's the disease that her mum usually had. I did pray for her mum. Later when we were having service at church I found out that her mum was in critical condition and Tatum and her sister had been asked by their brother to go back to Sabah a.s.a.p. So, right after service Jim drove them to the LCCT accompanied by Pam, Cleo and me. During the journey, I have a bad feeling :( and I thought that this maybe caused by my decision not to attend the meetings after the service. I just kept it to myself because I didn't want to cause any tense.

Tatum's flight was at 7.30 p.m. so she arrived at KK at 10 p.m. So, I've decided to give her a call at around 11p.m. and I was so sad to hear the news from Tatum about her mum's condition. I know how she felt as her mum suddenly fell sick though about a month ago before she went back to KL her mum was in a pink of health. She also told me that the doctor said nothing can be done and I prayed to God to give strength to her family and do the best for her mum.

I was already asleep when I received this SMS from Tatum at 2.27 a.m. today:
Ibu sy (Pn. Sekia) sdh dipanggil Tuhan at 2.08 a.m. Pls pray utk sgala kprluan kmi n prsiapan utk kebumi..doa jg utk phburan bg kmi skluarga.
I read the SMS again and again because I didn't believe what had been typed and I thought I was dreaming. Then, I woke up in the morning and read the SMS again..tears falling down from my eyes T_T ...the SMS is very true and I'm not dreaming. I feel so sad for the loss of Tatum's mum. We had met twice , in sabah and also in Shah Alam. For me she's such a lovely person and so motherly. Later, I called Tatum and told her to be strong and gave her support.

The death of Tatum's mum reminds me of the death of my beloved grandpa on 30th May this year. It's hard to accept the death of our love ones especially when it's a sudden death. We felt like they shouldn't leave us yet because we still need them but it is beyond our control. It lies in God's hand because no one comes to God except through Him.

This is the verse from the bible that I came across when I was writing the biography for my grandfather and I did share it with Tatum.
Revelation 14: 13 Then I heard a voice from heaven say, "Write: Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on." "Yes, "says the spirit,"they will rest from their labor, for their deeds will follow them.

This verse gives me the strength that I need to face the fact that my grandpa is now in a different world from me and I believe that Tatum can do the same thing too. Today when I think back about the bad feelings that I had yesterday it was the same feeling that I had experienced few hours before my uncle and my grandpa died. I just don't know how did these happened.

Condolence to Tatum and her family. Be strong girl for the Lord God is with you and I will always be there for you.

My grandpa's grave