I Asked God

I asked God to give me straight A’s

But 2 came out as TH

I asked for straight A’s again

But God just gave me 4

I asked God for 9 this time

But why he gave me only 4 and I got 7 for add maths

Why

Why

And why?

He is so unfair

Going to boarding school

Becoming a forensic expert

These were my dreams

I didn’t ask much

But why He didn’t fulfill it

I went to church every Sunday

I fast 24 hours before every examination

But why?

My life was ruined

I can’t see what future awaits me

I enrolled in form 6 science

I got my confidence back in my run to achieve my dreams

Just 2 months and I found out it was so difficult for me

Chemistry made my cry

Biology drove me crazy

Maths was killing me

Oh God will I ever get through this

I have thought of quitting

But how can I tell my friends when they ask me what I’m doing now

Then came this telegram stated there about an interview

After two days I went and came unprepared

The writing test was easy but the interview session was way tougher

I didn’t know any current news so I just made up

1 month later came this offer later

Yes I made it

But I cried

I cried because I’m going to bid adieu to my family

5 years of study and now I’m a TESL graduate

Looking back on how my life was before

I feel so embarrassed

I feel so ashamed

If I take the time to listen to His voice during that time

I think this is what He will say to me

My child,

It’s not that I don’t want to give you straight A’s

But you are not ready for it

For you will become snobbish

And leave me behind

I asked you to continue with your ministry but you turn Me down

For I know your strengths and weaknesses

For I know you what future holds for you

And I know what’s the best for you

Today I say to God

Thanks for everything

Thanks for always standing beside me when I turn you down

Thanks for giving me the opportunity to know about You

I will never stop thanking You

For the greatest thing in my life is knowing You

I didn’t know much why You wanted me to become a teacher

But I now I know you have given the vision to me

To be the light and salt to my students

And now I stop asking but I start doing

long time no write

i long time no write eh

why ah?

because i'm super duper lazy...

i have lots of things to write but i don't know where to start

and when i start putting my thoughts into words it's hard for me to write the conclusion or even put the full stop.

my last post was in 2009 when i was still a student

so many changes happened but i didn't update my blog..urgghh silly me

from student to employee

from bank to school

from underweight to normal

from long hair to short

but i just love my life now

A teacher am I

To educate

To inspire

and

To share

with my students

Not just the knowledge

But also the treasure of life

Latest pic of me :)

#Happy working on Tuesday peeps!